Struggling? Hurting? Angry? Bend Your Walls

Lonna Whiting
4 min readMar 8, 2022

Mom and I have the exact same mole on the top of our feet. The size of a tiny eraser and perfectly round and pink, we’ve both had our twin beauty marks since we were children. The only distinguishing feature is that my mole is on my right foot and hers is on her left foot.

I’m left-handed and she is right-handed. She’s an extrovert and loves people. I like to be alone and keep my true circle small.

We are mirror opposites, I suppose. Two beings reflected in each other from different sides. She is the ripple effect of my image in water.

Lately, though, we are a doubling. I see her in me so viscerally sometimes that I can’t tell which one of us is sick and which one is still walking around experiencing the world.

We are two people entwined in a singular story about how things go away and other things take up residence. She loses her mind and body bit by bit, and I gain little parts of her in my expression. A freckle. A raised eyebrow. A wink. A way of laughing. She escapes. I appear. There she goes. Here I am.

I am the face of her dying. She is the face of my living.

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Lonna Whiting
Lonna Whiting

Written by Lonna Whiting

Writer, foundress of nothing. Exploring loss, existence, and the female left-handed experience.

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